When I started this blog I intended to write and post consistently. I thought it would be neat and organized. Much like my current journey, it’s been anything but. I’m still scrawling away in my journal, but making it coherent enough to share publicly has been a challenge. One of the many lessons I’ve learned as of late is that it’s ok to let go, to be still, to rest in order to give my mind a break, so that my body can catch up. I decided to do just that: finish the chemo leg of treatment without putting unnecessary pressures on myself. I did, however, keep up the Medical Journal to record those details and share with those who follow it and are praying for us. We covet those prayers. I’m thrilled to report that chemo is OVER! I finished my last treatment on April 17th. I cannot go forward without sending out a huge thank you to all of those, near and far, known and unknown who have been covering us in love and prayers, cards and gifts, letters and meals. The love we have felt is really unfathomable (that’s a word I can barely pronounce, so maybe that means it does a decent job of expressing the overwhelming sense of being cared for that we have experienced). We are forever grateful.
As far as this blog goes, I’m excited to begin to share the stories. The timing will vary because I am currently getting ready for surgery (June 5th). But I’m thankful that as I heal from this next step, I will have these precious moments of God’s faithfulness to reflect on and share publicly. When I started this journey, I asked God for not just peace, but JOY. Joy in the face of this Thing – that could either attempt to break me or to stretch me further into my calling. I chose B and the truth is I have to make the decision to choose it every day.
I’m fully trusting that God has given me these experiences coupled with the love of writing in order to serve a greater purpose: to share hope and light in a world where there is too little of both. Thank you for reading.